I read a really interesting article this week about a girl who survived over 100 days without a heart.

 http://abcnews.go.com/Health/HeartHealth/wireStory?id=6292593

I wondered how she felt each day that she lay waiting on a heart.  Was she discouraged because she was in the hospital, or did she celebrate the little things in life every day? Does this make you a better person?

At times I sit and weep for the things that I missed out on, but in the grand scheme of things how important are they when I can walk around with my heart?  I can see with my eyes (a little assistance from glasses), write with my own hands, and express myself with my own voice.  Is that enough?  I’m not sure, but today I dare not complain about the things in life I don’t have I will just be grateful for the things in life that I do have.

On the flip side I also read about another courageous girl this week – a thirteen year old who refuses to have a heart transplant.

http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-wellbeing/health-news/girl-13-wins-right-to-refuse-heart-transplant-1009569.html

The girl decided that she was tired of going through treatments and pain for one thing after another and not knowing if she was going to be alright after the transplant.  Her family was in financial purgatory because for medical bills.  I’m not sure how her parents let her make such a heart wrenching decision at thirteen, but it brought a tear or two to my eyes.

As a parent I don’t think I could have lived with that decision from my child, because seeing my child even one more day would be worth it too me.  But maybe I’m being selfish as a parent – maybe the thirteen year old knows something about life that I don’t know.  Maybe she knows she’s not going to die even a second before it’s her time; maybe she knows that the older you get the less innocent your life becomes, or some other great mystery.  Who knows.

But like I said today I will just be grateful for medical miracles, family, and time.  I dare not complain about anything.

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     I enter the weekend with bitter sweet thoughts.  The week is ending and next week will usher in the Thanksgiving Holidays – but seeing how my daughter won’t be sharing the holiday with me I’m not looking forward to it.

     I should be ecstatic because she is going with North Augusta High School band to the Philadelphia Parade.  I’ll get chance to see her on national television – a proud moment for any mother; but, there won’t be any after turkey movie, or not next day complaints about turkey sandwiches for lunch, and turkey again for dinner.  Nope there won’t be anyone for me to complain to or anyone for me to listen too.

     I can only hope that the stuff she eats from whatever restaurant will be open will remind her of the special time that we usually spend together.  I see this as a transitioning phase in her life – she being able to find other adventures that fulfill her and her being able to make decisions about where she wants to go and do in life.

     I wish I had pursued opportunities that would have enriched my life when I was her age.  We all make decisions some good, some bad, some bad that turn out to be blessings in disguise.  I’ve had my share of all of those – I just pray that being a single mom, full time student, and employee turn out to be a tough decision that returns great fortune for me.  Not all monetary, but personal as well.  I read some where that if you do what you love than you won’t work a day in your life.  I’m hoping that after graduation I won’t work a single day in my life.

Side note:  When it’s time for the eagle to leave the nest, let them spread their wings and fly.

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Well this semester has been full of challenges for me and having group projects has been the biggest challenge.  I like working with other people; but when you are involved in 3 group projects it a little hard to keep time from overlapping.  That as it maybe I have learned a lot from these projects some about doing projects and some about me.

Projects in general:

1.      always prepare for the unexpected (surely something will happened that wasn’t planed – even if it happens to be that the project goes well and is finished before deadline.

2.      always hold yourself to the same standards that you hold other people to – easy to make an excuse for not doing your part just because its you and not someone else

3.      remember its not just your grade but the grade of your whole group

4.      sometimes other people plagiarize so part of your project is checking to see what everyone is doing – and hope that they are checking behind you as well

5.      if it rains and pours at the end of the storm there will be flowers

About me:

1.      I enjoy working with other people more when I’m not trying to micromanage – it’s easier for me to focus on my part

2.      it’s best to speak up when something is really going wrong – it leaves more time at the end to fix it

3.      I need to ask people what they did in the classes I sign up for in the future so that I won’t be stuck with three group projects at one time

4.      There’s always room for personal growth including attitude adjustments – every personality may not fit the person you are, but you can adjust the person you are to get the job done

5.      If I can make it to graduation the work force should be easy J

Side note: what do jazz, books, brochures, and catering have in common?

                  When I put them all together this semester I got a headache.

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Well I must admit I have wasted money this weekend that I don’t have.  My niece and nephew had a birthday party this weekend, so being the good aunt that I am I rushed out and picked up the perfect gifts for them.  Only to find that I did not pick the most popular gift for the year, or for the last century for that matter.  The most popular toy for kids is one that I already had, it wouldn’t have cost me one red cent, more less all the green backs I spent on them.  The most popular toy that was just inducted into the toy hall of fame was, a stick.  That’s right ladies and gentlemen I said I stick.  A regular old stick that’s littering the yards was just inducted into the toy hall of fame. So while you are out shopping for all the tots and kids in your life pick up a gift that’s in the toy hall of fame.  The newly inducted includes: the stick, baby doll and skateboard.  Also on the list is one toy that I was saddened about not having wrapped under my Christmas Tree – the Atari 2600.  http://www.syracuse.com/news/index.ssf/2008/11/stick_inducted_into_toy_hall_o.html

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How Presidential the new first family looks.  I feel bad that Sasha & Malia stayed up later than I did.  The looked as cute as American Pie. Obama said  “Change has come to America”, I must agree 101%.  More people turned out to vote, more people stood behind the candidate of their choice, more people fought for what they believed, more conversations were started with strangers just because.  Yes change – a positive change has come to America.  I pray that the conversations, and love for one another continues to flow between people who are different in so many ways; however, exactly alike in all the ways that matter – we are all Americans.

Here’s to a future so bright we’ll need sunglasses.  See you in the halls of ASU

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